It was a test of humility.
C.S. Lewis quotes, “Humility is not thinking of yourself less but thinking less of yourself.”
Our reactions are one way of letting other people know who we really are. We do make an effort in guarding our hearts, gaining control over our decisions, but when we are just so into the moment, we become blind, unconsciously aware that we’ve exalted ourselves and rejected the Lord. I’ve been guilty of this. Exalting doesn’t limit to praise, it could be that we have built this wall called “pride”. Like choosing to let the person confront you because it was his or her fault or envisioning yourself as better than the one in the position or being in competition with them just because you believe you are better than them.
Pride as defined in the dictionary (Meriam Webster) is:
: A feeling that you respect yourself and deserve to be respected by other people
: A feeling that you are more important or better than the other people
: A feeling of happiness that you get when you or someone you know does something good, difficult, etc.
Sometimes we question our authority in work, in school, in the community or in the ministry, or in our country, why are they there in the first place when they can’t even do it right? But God, said whoever is in authority, he placed there for His purpose. They were anointed by God, and although some do not believe in Him, he uses them to carry out His greater purpose.
“Be subject for the Lord’s sake to every human institution, whether it be to the emperor as supreme, or to governors as sent by him to punish those who do evil and to praise those who do good.” 1 Peter 2:13
If I wrote this blog expecting something in return, I would be the opposite of humility. If I grumble of difficulties thinking I deserve better, I am self-seeking, If I care too much of my ego, if I become happy or proud of someone because he or she followed me instead of being happy for the person because he or she followed Christ, then my life in Christ is a lie.
“Who is wise and understanding among you? By his good conduct let him show his works in the meekness of wisdom. But if you have bitter jealousy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast and false to the truth. This is not wisdom that comes down from above, but is earthly, unspiritual, demonic. James 3:13-15
I’ve chosen to hurt Christ by being self-centered instead of focusing on His Word, living in obedience to him, leading by His example. Humility is so hard to achieve! But, he gives it to those who earnestly ask of it through prayer.
God looks at hearts when we pray. Do we have the desire to get better and share to others each time we pray? Or do we seek out our needs and lessen our worries through it? It takes a lot of humbling down when praying to God.